Friday, November 26, 2010

Searching the Darkness

Search the Darkness
Sit with your friends, don't go back to sleep.
Don't sink like a fish to the bottom of the sea.
Surge like an ocean, don't scatter yourself like a storm.
Life's waters flow from darkness.
Search the darkness, don't run from it.
Night travelers are full of light, and you are too:
don't leave this companionship.
Be a wakeful candle in a golden dish,
don't slip into the dirt like quicksilver.
The moon appears for night travelers,
be watchful when the moon is full.

I returned from Silver Bella to a husband who had experienced chest pain and had not wanted to worry me. All heart exams were normal. The pain radiated to his lower left abdomen and another set of tests began. Several days later, he was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer. There are three arteries involved in the tumor which makes it hard to operate right now. We are researching treatments all across the country, as well as locally. We are learning how to live and navigate in the dark. Most of all we are learning about the love and caring of friends. 

We would love to hear from you...LOVE!!! We need all the support we can get. We really need your prayers and good thoughts. Please also feel free to go to Jud's Caring Bridge Site and write a note.We love to hear from you there, too.

We will stay in touch.

Suz, Kat and Jud


  1. I am so very sorry to hear your news. Prayers for strength and healing going your way. Bless you!

  2. Suz, I'm so sorry to hear this. Sending lots of love and prayers.

  3. Sending prayers and good thoughts your way: may God be near you always in this new challenge.

  4. Sending good healing thoughts your way...

  5. Oh Suz; I am so sorry to hear this. I pray for your husband... I pray that the Lord's healing touch come down upon him and let His streams of Living water flow through him, healing as it flows. God is in control! Thank you God for hearing our prayers and for holding Suz and her hubby in the shadow of Your wings! Darkness is as light to you, so help them all to see through the darkness.
    I thank you for this dear Lord. Amen!
    Big hugs to you Suz ~ I will continue to pray!

  6. My thoughts are with you. I envisage you finding the treatment and all being well --whatever the outcome. Love, C.

  7. Suze, I am so sorry to hear about this! I will be praying for your dear husband's healing and for yourself. Take care and hang in there and above all lean on the Lord for strength!

  8. As you search the darkness light will shine forth. Prayers for your entire family and for complete recovery of your husbands health. Blessings my dear...

  9. Hey sweetie,

    Just checking in to let you know I am thinking about you and your family. I've got the Caring Bridge site bookmarked. Here's a great big squishy hug for you and yours.


  10. Suz, I am just so sorry that the test results were not as you hoped. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. If you need to vent, vent my way.

    A big, enveloping hug ~~ Connie

  11. I am so sorry to hear such sad news. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you lots of hugs and love your way.

  12. Suz, I'm so sorry to hear about Jud's diagnosis. I do wish I could do more but please know that you and Jud and Kat are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending big hugs your way... {{{Suz}}}. xo, Beth

  13. I was so shocked when I read this post Suz. It must be a terrifying for Jud, you and Kat. I am thinking of you and sending prayers for the docs to arrive at a good plan, strength for you to find your way through this darkness and hope for healing and restored health.

  14. Prayers and healing energy continue to beam their way to you all.
    Wish I had the words to express exactly what is in my heart....

  15. thank you also for sharing the Rumi quote with us

  16. have been thinking of you daily, friend.

  17. Thinking of you and praying for you too. It was so good to see you again...can't believe how fast the days went. God be with you friend!

  18. suz,

    know that you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

    a sb friend,

  19. I am so happy you are sharing this news so we can embrace you and your family during this "waiting room" you are in.

    I love you.

  20. Suz,
    I had to read this post 3 times for it to really sink in ~ my heart goes out to you and Jud and please know you are in my heart felt prayers. I am so thankful for you and your friendship and your inspiration. Much love to you dear! ~ Katie

  21. Oh my goodness I'm so sorry to hear that. I'll keep all of you in my prayers. Big hugs!

  22. Suz....I am so so sorry my friend. I pray for you. I pray for your husband. I pray for Kat.
    I pray that His peace will surround you day and night.....

  23. Suz, I am still in shock for you and your husband and family. I am sure every day is a different day of emotions. My kids and I stopped what we were doing and said a prayer for your family the minute that I read of this news. I think of you every time I look at my tea cup fairy, and say a little something for you each time...I am sending positive prayers, and thoughts your way. XOXO ~ a new Silver Bella friend.

  24. oh Dear Sue...I'm so thankful that you left me a message to stop me in my tracks and let me know about Jud...I'm soooo sooooo sorry dear friend. I cannot imagine the emotions that are flowing through you, but know that I will be praying for you and your family. This news is so shocking to me as I haven't been on the computer much lately and haven't been able to visit recently. My heart is with you sweetie...I love you dearly~
    I will keep in touch...