Sunday, January 16, 2011

A time for healing...

 Photo by Jud Reaney

There are moments when wellness escapes us,
moments when pain and suffering
are not dim possibilities
but all too agonizing realities.
At such moments we must open ourselves to healing.

Much we can do for ourselves;
and what we can do
we must do ~
no less than illness,
is participatory.

But even when we do all we can do
there is,
still much left to be done.
And so we turn as well to our healers
seeking their skill to aid in our struggle for wellness.

But even when they do all they can do
there is,
still much left to be done.
And so we turn to Life,
to the vast Power of Being that animates the universe
as the ocean animates the wave,
seeking to let go of that which blocks our healing.

May those
whose lives are gripped in the palm of suffering
even now
to the Wonder of Life.
May they let go of the hurt
and Meet the True Self beyond pain,
the Uncarved Block
that is our joyous Unity with Holiness.

May they discover through pain and torment
the strength to live with grace and humor.
May they discover through doubt and anguish
the strength to live with dignity and holiness.
May they discover through suffering and fear
the strength to move toward healing.

  ~ Rabbi Rami M. Shapiro (from Prayers for Healing, 365 Blessings, Poems, and Meditations from Around the World; entry for March 5th)

I am in pain. I came with a scooter from a dear friend and it worked wonderfully. It is heavy, though, and did not fit in our friend's smaller car. I did a stupid thing. Barry (our friend) took me to the hospital when Jud had his endoscopy and offered to park the car and push me in a wheelchair. I said, "Absolutely not. I am doing fine. It's just a short walk." The short walk was almost a mile both ways. I woke up the next day with severe pain in my right knee (the one approaching surgery for osteoarthritis) and severe pain in my left leg (the one with neuropathy and RSD). I am still in a lot of pain, five days later. I am kicking myself for insisting on walking. I hate having assistance, but what a ridiculous price to pay.

I will need to see an orthopedist and get another shot in my knee, though we don't have time until we get to Mesa. I can have three before a knee replacement. My fear is that I will not be able to take care of Jud if he has surgery or becomes more ill. When I woke up this morning, Jud told me that he wakened in the night and worried that I might be recovering from knee surgery while he is recovering from a Whipple procedure. He was having the same worries.

May we both find a way to move beyond suffering and fear and find the "strength to move toward healing."


  1. Oh, no! Sending well wishes and big hugs to both of you!!

  2. o suz...i pray for warmth and healing to head your way quickly...i am sorry to hear you are in pain and are strained...

  3. oh dear... I'm sending up a prayer for you to heal quickly and also the same for your husband. I know that God will provide everything you need and will make sure you are both able to care for one another, or that something will work out so that you dont have to worry about it!

  4. Oh, Suz!!! I am so sorry about your knee...

  5. I lift you up Suz. Drink fluids, ice, rest. Pray. Cry. Laugh. Repeat.

  6. Sending you both prayers...

    Suz, I am ready to send your ornament album on it's way. All I need is your address to send it on it's way.

    Take care... Hugs, Sheila

  7. Suz, I am SO sorry you are having such pain, you have had to deal with a lot...I will be sending good thoughts and prayers your way...XO

  8. So sorry to hear that? are you all right by now? Hope you heal soon. XOXO

  9. oh my dear Suz
    being in physical pain is not what you need now or anytime...hoping and praying for healing to come in ways you haven't even imagined yet...I know you are open to it

    what you've shared here is another sweet example of your grace and holiness

    healing prayers continue for you and Jud and Kat
    BIG Gentle Hugs to you

  10. Sweet Suz,
    I felt your pain reading your post today. I had severe knee and shoulder pain from fibromyalgia. PLEASE go to and call him! It saved me from pain and suffering. RA,fibromyalgia... pain free.
    Email me if you need to. I care!
    Kim :0)

  11. One prayer sent up for you and Jud. May you truly both find healing! I think of you both often.
    Hugs and blessings dear friend.

  12. Suz,
    I know you and your hubby are going through SO much right now! You are both in my thoughts and prayers!
    And,,,,,the "Random Number Generator" must have been sympathetic TOO, because you won My Giveaway! I'll email you also. And I know, given the circumstances, it's not much, but I'm GLAD you WON! Sent me your Snail mail addy

    Hugs, Love, Prayers and a "Bus!"

  13. Please try to stay off the knee as much as possible so that it can and relaxation can be good medicine, right?

  14. Hi there! Lifting you up and your helaing. Lots and Lots of healing for you and your husband and Soul restoration too Suz! Sending you patience and Psalm 91 today. Tuck under his wing and feel the hug dear girl!! XO


    x 100o.

  16. Been thinkin' about you sweet Suz...hugs and fast healing to you and your husband. May this new year bring health and happiness to all.
    Smiles from Texas...Mendy

  17. Your post has words of strength and wisdom and we all can gain from these words. Prayers for each of you on this journey of life. Your smile is bright and peaceful.

  18. Hello Lovely Lady ~
    That photo at the top is stunningly captivating and I adore it! And I adore you too, the way you (and Jud) are writing about and sharing your new adventure is so inspiring and ministers to all of us who surround you.
    Blessings my Dear heart,
    ~ Katie

  19. Oh Suz,
    I pray for a healing for you and hope that you will be feeling better soon...Thank you so much for coming to visit....I am so happy that you found your way to my new magazine blog.

    Sending (((hugs))) your way,

  20. Oh no Suz! I hope you heal soon!!!


  21. I am so sorry Suz! You are always so positive and happy that it worries me you are in so much pain. I hope you do take care of it soon.
    Blessings to you and your husband!

  22. Dear Suz, You are nearly overcome in this post. The Friendship of Pain is such an unrelenting partner. Be selfish with yourself and keep some of your energies reserved for the moment. You will find the way to care for Judd when he needs you. He will be there for you as well. Elizabeth

  23. Oh no my friend...sending you healing prayers my friend.....and for Judd!

    Wish I could be there to help out! xoxoxo

  24. I am so sorry, Suz. Sending healing thoughts your way.

  25. i'm so very sorry to hear that you are in pain. sending you good wishes and happy, healing thoughts.

    the charlottes are wonderful indeed. i just got some older, "original style" charlottes from the 1860s -- i didn't realize previously that the popular ones were different from the original style.

  26. what you need to do to be as healthy as you can. We all like to think we are super women. Take it slow. Let friends carry your burdens when they can. I am so sorry you are in pain now. Take it when you You are in my prayers always Dear One.

  27. Oh Suze! I'm praying for your healing and comfort as well as Jud's. Try to rest and let people help you. I know it's hard to do but you must.